Sunday, December 26, 2010

stats (no link here)

I just found the stats section of the settings for my blog.

I have had 778 people stumble on this writing.  That's something to think about.

778 is a whole bunch of people.  Even if the 5 people whom I have alerted (1.5 years ago) came back a few times... there are still rather a large number of people in the world who have now looked at this.

still in fits and starts phase but not quite inert...

I've initiated another page/blog over on

lately the idea of just writing a book presents itself.  I've read a couple of books on book proposals and have spoken briefly with an acquaintance who wrote a book and found a publisher.  His main suggestion was just to write every day without exception for a certain amount of time or pages.  This makes a lot of sense since I've managed to not write regularly for a whole year and one half now.

Several days ago I was contemplating the improbability of book writing next to the ongoing impulse to write.  I thought this is like trying to give birth to a child while putting a ship (or the child) in a bottle.  It's like two conflicting impulses together.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Marianne Williamson interview which I found encouraging

(when you click on the the title you will go to Alternatives UK's menu of free podcasts.  Pass person who appears to have gone a little overboard with elective surgery...Scroll way down to Marianne Williamson and then follow directions.  She really is good at making the spiritual truth accessible.  When I talk about the truth as I see it people's eyes glaze over.  She makes you go "Ohhhhhhh! I get it!" )

So yesterday I listened to President Obama's weekly address.  I receive emails from the White House and you can too!  I don't always open the emails but yesterday I did.  His address was focused on corporate influence on elections which is not accompanied by identification of donors.  Businesses can put money into politics already but the new development has to do with the amounts of money and the clandestine nature of the contributions.  Anyway, I posted the link to Facebook and sent a link to a bunch of people.  Probably you were one of them.  I mentioned using the power of the vote to elect leaders who put human rights before corporate rights.  Marianne Williamson uses very similar language towards the end of this lecture.

It irks me no end to hear people such as the array of brilliant minds on the Fox News platform using their power to influence already fearful people into more fear.  You are either in the TEA PARTY or you are a Communist.  If you are concerned with feeding and clothing hungry children you are a Communist.  Well let me go out on a limb here and state that feeding, clothing and educating children is very important to me.  How radical!  I call it Democracy.  It makes me happy.  

Marianne Williamson touches on that idea, care of children as a priority of collective effort, and I find that when I hear other people speak that goal from power I calm down.  I still remember weeping when Liv Ullman spoke from her position as UN Ambassador for Children and asked why the welfare of children always comes last.  Talk about Mama Grizzlies; she was pissed off!  I'll bet that's on YouTube since everything else is.  I don't know why the (totally avoidable) suffering of others should cause me pain.  I don't know why the stifling of other people's minds should cause me to feel anger.  But if I take that energy and use it to help maybe I will feel better.

So, my spiritual path now includes canvassing for the Democratic Party.  I really dread the actual doing of this.  We'll see how it goes.

And I dedicate this next song to Glenn Beck.  It may have been written for him.  The verse is 'F U' just so you know.  But it's still great. link to song I heard while standing outside dressing room in Hollister store while my big little girl tried on jeans. I sought out a sales clerk to ask who is that singing. It's Lily Allen God bless her.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

meditation challenge

OK.  I'm a little chagrined that I haven't written anything since May.  I shall not dwell upon that.  

Moving forward:  Since Deepak Chopra wrote a book about Christ which caught my attention I've been more aware of him (Chopra) and have opted in to his web world.  I like his sense of humor.  Also, I've read some of his responses to heartfelt, occasionally heartbreaking, queries posted to his blog.  His responses make sense.  He sounds like someone who practiced medicine seriously, which he did.  He's got Doctor thinking going on.    The Chopra Center has me on their list for email solicitations to pricey retreats.  Today I received an invitation to a FREE 21 day meditation challenge.  I enrolled.

My calendar already said Meditation on August 12.  I'd been looking at the website for a local Tibetan Meditation center and made note of their weekly open meditation.  It is destined.

you can only start from where you are.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

It will all work out. HOW will it? I don't know. It's a mystery

Philip Henslowe: Mr. Fennyman, allow me to explain about the theatre business. The natural condition is one of insurmountable obstacles on the road to imminent disaster.
Hugh Fennyman: So what do we do?
Philip Henslowe: Nothing. Strangely enough, it all turns out well.
Hugh Fennyman: How?
Philip Henslowe: I don't know. It's a mystery.

While I cleaned today I had Shakespeare In Love playing.  It surprised me how little I remembered of it.  The lines above particularly interested me. It will be ok.  How will it?  I don't know...
I like the certainty.  It's out of your control and yet the outcome is not in question.

And speaking of mystery, while watching The Wizard's of Waverly Place with my favorite pre-teen last week I spotted a poster in the background for "Mystery Play".  That's pretty funny.  Pretty obscure and therefore more funny.

Kind of like seeing the Advent Wreath from the Waldorf Kindergarten (completely not in favor of tv for kids) in the Disney Tinkerbelle Movie.

real thing:

tinkerbell movie - can't find it but there is really an Advent Spiral in the movie.  I don't think they appear elsewhere so some Disney movie maker is hip to the Waldorf Kindergarten.

This seems to support up the thesis that popped into my head 20 years ago

The Esoteric is becoming Exoteric and the Exoteric is becoming Esoteric.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Tavis Smiley - Meet the Faiths (click this title... it's a link)

I heard part of this on the drive home from our church's faith formation evening.  I love Tavis Smiley anyway but this was so right up my alley.  You can't talk about human dignity without hinting at a creator.  like yeee ahhh, I know!

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

my link was blocked for copywrite reasons.

Sorry, I'm thinking

while you wait, enjoy this cartoon which I associate with the Holy Spirit.  Some gifts may be very difficult to share.  You can't always turn them on and off like a bathtub faucet.

I just went visiting old posts and realized that the you tube link here was blocked.

so here's a wiki-page about the cartoon I was trying to refer you to.

Monday, March 8, 2010

link to: Deepak Chopra's article on the potential for enlightenment in Corporations

I posted a comment following Deepak Chopra's article which included my 'website'. It's like I'm waving from my little rock in the stream. Hi Dr. Chopra!

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Are we a Good King or a Bad King?

I'd love to see an ongoing review of the history of government and the ideas behind governments. I have always believed that when I pledge allegiance to the flag I am supporting a government based on the ideal of dignity and education for all citizens. I have been interested in Art, Religion and early childhood generally and haven not been highly political. Lately however, it occurs to me that half of the people of the United States are pledging allegiance to something entirely different. The Republican Party just baffles me these days and I wonder how they got that way. Democrats are Neo-Monarchists? (Huh?) We can't let the pen be mightier than the sword? (Where does that put education?) The party with the biggest gun wins. (Oh, like might = right?) We shouldn't feed poor children because that creates a 'dependency culture'? (If you systematically create poverty so you can look down on it you are just ill.) Corporations are entitled to the rights associated with individual citizens but are not to be held accountable to any body of law? and are encouraged to become as huge and powerful as possible so that world government would ultimately be by Money? Any effort to exert legal force on corporate entities is 'coercive utopianism'? Can we talk about the dependency culture of powerful individuals who can't get enough money or power whose addictive need led them to contrive funky financial 'instruments' to hide debt and sell trash?

It used to seem to me that the difference between Democrats and Republicans was mostly sartorial and age related. But the things I hear coming from Republicans in the past few years seem so bizarre to me. I think of someone like Gerald Ford and wonder if he would've found any of it palatable. I think about the previous generation, my elders, and wonder what they would think of policies that let to the bankruptcy of so many innocent people. My great Aunts and Uncles were hardly radical and may have been Republican but I can tell you that they would have been disgusted. They really were all about responsibility. At least a couple of them were according to specific stories.

I believe strongly that what sets us apart as a nation is the basis of our Constitution in the concept of the value of the individual. The kingship is shared among citizens. That concept can save us and make us meaningful. Sheer greed, ruthlessness and thirst for control will sink us for sure because the Chinese will win that battle. Machiavelli would have been appreciative of their style, I think.

If Democracy makes each of us king in concept, are we a good king or a bad king?

Thursday, January 28, 2010


(click on title to find New York Times Article on J.D. Salinger's passing). You may remember when I started writing a little here I thought of J.D. Salinger as my answer to 'Who are you writing for... who's your audience?'

I just read this article. The criticism stopped just short of calling his work sophomoric. Or at least it sounded that way to me. I think a lot of people who have nearly escaped deep cynicism may seem sophomoric.

" Mr. Salinger’s people tend to be outsiders — spiritual voyagers shipwrecked in a vulgar and materialistic world, misfits who never really outgrew adolescent feelings of estrangement. They identify with children and cling to the innocence of childhood with a ferocity bordering on desperation..."

Probably someone has already compared him to Herman Hesse then.

What is the innocence of childhood anyway? Isn't that a state where the 'I am' stands and beams love and imbibes love despite the knowledge that it isn't in a position of strength with regard to knowledge? It's the mind that has not learned to doubt itself. Mighty.

this is the pure creature that does not exist
they did not know that and in any case
its motion and its bearing and its neck
even to the light of its still gaze they loved it
indeed it never was
yet because they loved it
a pure creature happened
they always allowed room
and in that room, clear and left open
it easily lifted its head and scarcely needed to be
they fed it on no grain
but ever on the possibility that it might be
and this gave the creature such strength
it grew a horn out of its brow
one horn
to a virgin it came hither white
and was in the silver mirror
and in her.

(from the Norton translation of Sonnets to Orpheus and from my memory because I don't have the book anymore.)

I hope J.D. Salinger is having a fabulous Release Party.

Monday, January 18, 2010

For the Anniversary of My Death

So, 2012. What do you think? I was subbing in a Middle School Math class last week and a rather funny, like comedienne funny, tiny, painstakingly funky, girl started saying " Like, December 21, 2012.. Is that going to be a school day!"

She was not totally kidding. I've only recently cottoned on to the whole Mayan calendar thing. The billboards telling me to look up 2012 on the internet went unheeded. I figured I'd look up 2012 and wind up at a sight which would download a virus that would kill my computer. Luckily the History Channel filled me in so now I
know about the Mayan Calendar. Another History Channel program relieved my mind a little by reminding me that Apocalypse means something like drawing away the curtain. Immediately I think of James Joyce's Stephen Daedalus walking along Sandy Mount Strand saying 'limits of the diaphane' and 'ineluctible modality of the visible... that at least if nothing more, seen through my eyes." James Joyce is associated with the having of Epiphanies. Because of his use of the word diaphane in that section, I always, without fail, hear 'Epiphane' in the background of Epiphany. What are the limits of the Epiphane? Epiphane turns out to be a name but not a word. Still it seems as though it hints at a numerical or degree increase of revealing or... revelation. The diaphane is like the gauzy and beautifully draped veil of matter through which Life speaks. If you were to discover or establish the limits of the diaphane what would be your next step? The Epiphane I think. Also on the History Channel I caught a program about apocryphal gospels. I really eat that stuff up. But the following quotation is from The Gospel of Mary (Magdalene).

. . . the Gospel of Mary communicates a vision that the world is passing away, not toward a new creation or a new world order, but toward the dissolution of an illusory chaos of suffering, death, and illegitimate domination. The Savior has come so that each soul might discover its own true spiritual nature, its "root" in the Good, and return to the place of eternal rest beyond the constraints of time, matter, and false morality.

For the Anniversary of My Death

by W. S. Merwin
Every year without knowing it I have passed the day
When the last fires will wave to me
And the silence will set out
Tireless traveler
Like the beam of a lightless star

Then I will no longer
Find myself in life as in a strange garment
Surprised at the earth
And the love of one woman
And the shamelessness of men
As today writing after three days of rain
Hearing the wren sing and the falling cease
And bowing not knowing to what

Epiphane is when the diaphane falls away from YOU.

Sunday, January 10, 2010